Everyone has issues, no matter how large or small they seem on a world scale. Some people, like myself, can blow up an issue and make it seem like the center of the world. One bad day, can be the focus of a whole week, or month, or year.
I lost my pencil case, my prized possession. Now that, that is a problem for me that ruins my whole day, maybe even week. Because everytime I sit down in class and reach for my pencil case, I remember that it is gone. I sigh, then I pout, then I whine to my fellow student and I take out my only pen. Now that is rough. In a school setting, my pencil case truly is my life. I have my highlighters, my three expensive mechanical pencils that I have had for the past two years, my glue stick, my pretty color sharpies, my chapstick, my long and colorful eraser, my favorite pens, and my crappy pencils and pens that are only used for those who ask to borrow a writing tool. I think it is the fact that my dark green looney tune pencil case is gone that makes me upset. And as the day passes, if I encounter an additional problem, then its truly a crappy day. But then I take a deep breath and reflect. . .
My day is not at all shitty compared to others' days. I just tend to magnify my problems, no matter how small they are, because all human beings are selfish and like to be the center of attention. Especially me. When I have a shitty day, everyone has to know that it's my shitty day. I have to make sure all my friends and my whole family know. But when I take a step back, I notice my selfishness. I notice that others wish to have my problems. Some peoples' shitty day may be everyday, because they don't have food and starve, or live on the street becuase they don't have money. Some might even be having a perfect day, until a natural disaster ruins their home. Someone sick with a disease has crappy days everyday. Someone who is fighting cancer, or depression, or AIDS, or alcoholism, or any addiction is having a crappier day than me. A best friend or family member may have died the same day I lost my pencil case. The point is, that my crappy day is nothing compared to someone else's shitty day. It makes me feel as if I take my life for granted. I need to realize that my life is something that I should cherish and never give up. I love my life.
I can say that I am lucky to be able to go to school and get a great education; to have friends I can trust and share my life with; to come home everyday to a family that loves me; to have food ready on the table; to have my own room, bed, and bathroom; I am lucky to be happy and laugh everyday. So the small issues I have mean nothing when I look at the larger picture. Instead of magnifying my small problems, I should try to help others with bigger, more important problems. I could donate to research teams, cook a meal for a homeless man, or send flowers to someone in pain. My little actions can make someone's shitty day, not so shitty. By being unselfish and not self-centered, I can make someone else smile or laugh when they haven't in a long time. I need to cherish the life I have because my issues aren't so shitty when I think about it. Everyone has issues. The world has issues.
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